My life has been plagued with this funny feeling of wanting to do absolutely everything and fuck all at the same time.
An example: I wanted to study parts of all subjects and as a result of my indecisiveness in picking a course for university, because I was fearful about making the wrong decision, missed out on the deadline and ended up studying nothing at all. Eventually I felt as everyone does, like it was too late, I was too old. I’m only twenty-fucking-four.
When I do make a breakthrough and take a few steps ahead, I end up stagnating due to fear again: ‘what if I can’t do it?’; ‘I’m overwhelmed, it’s too much stress!’; ‘I’ll do it next time.’
It goes something like this:
Idea > Excitement > Determination > Stress > Overwhelmed > Fear > Doubt > Abort
My justification for aborting out of fear later leads to regret when I’m faced with a shit option I can’t escape.
The reality is: failing is not as bad as being worried about failing and not taking the opportunity.
‘What if I can’t do it?’
But what if I succeed?
me, a successful legend
And should you try and fail, you succeed in your efforts of attempting to get your ideas off the ground.
‘But I’ll be 30, 40, 50 etc. by the time I finish.’
You’re going to be 30, 40, 50 etc. regardless.
I had quite a morbid epiphany recently: Whether you’re in your 20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s, perhaps even 80s; if you were to die today, wouldn’t they say you died young? In my opinion, that means you must still have a full life ahead of you and plenty of time to double back and start again if you change your mind. Only this time you’re not starting from scratch, you’re starting from experience. Use this ONE trick to further aid you in conquering your social anxiety!
“By succumbing to your fears, you fail by default.”